Blue

~After a couple of weeks of being incredibly stressed and upset about work, I moved on and for the last two or three weeks I've been feeling much better. My clergy coach has been incredibly supportive, helping me process some pretty painful things, and I've been able to reflect on what I can learn about myself and others from what's been going on here. The whole situation hasn't changed, and there's nothing I can do to change it, but with all the Lenten activities I've been organizing I've been able to focus on work I really love and let go (mostly) of the rest of it. But today, it started getting me down again. Not badly, but enough to make me feel a bit blue.

~So here's one thing I forgot to report: The sabbatical my boss was going to take? The one where he'd be gone for four months and I'd be in charge? Is postponed to an indefinte date in the future. (This is mostly unrelated to the still unbloggable other stuff that I will at some point write about here). Now you might think this might be a relief--I won't have all that extra responsibility. But in fact, it's a huge disappointment for me and the rest of the staff--all of us were looking forward to his absence for a while. For a break. He would've been leaving next week. Sigh.

~I'm sick of spin. Because there has been so much SPIN going here it would make you dizzy. About the sabbatical--both when it was planned and when it was put off. About my job. About a bunch of stuff. I hate it. And when other people see through the spin and ask me questions about things that I can't honestly answer? I hate that, too.